décolletage

i wear a sweater in the desert heat so men won't stare at my breasts.

and people are always shocked when i say i would cut them off in a second if given the opportunity.

seventy two hours

and she got tired of being faithful to the idea of you.

succexy

so this is my third week going to the gym :]
i feel fabulous. my first week i started off at 1.67 miles in 30 minutes and i was dying. week three and i am already up to 3.09 miles in 30 minutes. woohoo!

but i think i am going to stop counting miles and up the resistance level. i'll see what happens when i do that. and i love the balance ball!!



i think the ball is one of the best inventions EVER. i want to buy one for my apartment so i can work-out at home. but i probably won't invest until i relocate. i also love that balance thing that lays flat on the floor. i don't know what it is called but at 24 hour fitness they are mega stingy and only trainers are allowed to use it >.<

kim and i tried to do pull ups on this weight machine yesterday. yeah i made a complete ass out of myself. i did one and then just hung there because i could not pull myself up for a second one. i am hoping to get super fit.

now i just need to make a work out mix on my ipod.
doing cardio to radiohead just isn't working out for me.

insipid woman that i am

i believe i desire to be a poet.
a published poet.
even if only self-published.

i wish i wrote this:

"if i didn't know the difference living alone'd probably be ok
it wouldn't be lonely
i got a long way to go
i'm getting further away
a lot of hours to occupy, it was easy when i didn't know you yet
things i'd have to forget
but i better be quiet now
i'm tired of wasting my breath
carrying on and getting upset
maybe i got a problem, but that's not what i wanted to say
i'd prefer to say nothing.
i got a long way to go
i'm getting further away."

© elliott smith


but instead these are my words:


contagion

i'm nervous


because she
wins
she has your history
folded up and tucked
away in the side pocket
of her purse
begging to
pose a
threat
by bringing it out to re.mind
you
lure
you
a w a y

from me

with her
sneaky
familiarity


© mja


sometimes i wish i wasn't so pathetically female.
so unlike joe i will simply have another poem for 'everyone' to read. lol just because i don't think i can focus long enough to write anything else.

so until i can think of something more worthwhile this is all i have.

same typical offering

everyone else was doing it.
i thought i should too.